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Friday, January 20, 2012

Chapter 1, Page 20 of 366.

this two-third part of the month had been super rocky for me. i cheered, i grieved, and i exploded.
have you ever missed someone that they got into your dreams? have you ever felt like you've been stabbed? have you ever felt butterflies flying in your tummy? have you ever had your tears run down your eyes? have you ever sobbed so hard that you just want to hide under the earth and never pop your head back up again? have you ever felt like something's been put inside your throat but you never managed to get it out? have you ever missed someone so bad? have you ever had the desire to hug someone that doesn't even want to be a part of your life? honestly, i've never felt any of those things till now.

since the day i decided not to have anything to do with this particular person, i feel like i don't deserve to go to my current school. it's like something's pulling me out of there. i've always thought i belong there for the people are so nice, well some of them. and i thought i'd fit in perfectly which i kinda did. haha, well not perfectly but pretty well. but then i started having a crush on  this person. and he is PRRFFFTTHHHH <-- fart sound. well he's not that bad actually. but he's keeping me on the hook!

wtfffff-___________- and im having this conflict with a teacher who i used to like  A LOT! but something went wrong, and i regreted it. but what can i do now? she keeps sarcastically talking about me in front of the whole class. i know i was wrong. but is there any point in humiliating me? firetruck-_-

But still, i thank God for giving me such friends. who are understanding, cooperative, caring, affectionate, kind, and loving and supportive! i love you:):):):).

Friday, January 6, 2012

Thankyou yang terlupa;)

I've been making friends with these two guys who actually went to the same junior high as i did. I was pretty close with the first guy as we were in the same homeroom during our seventh grade, haha he was my laughing mate with another friend which is my current best guyfriend. Haha, and the other one, i never had the chance to you know like be close? Idk, i hated him for looking so.... Snobbish? Idk. But turns out he was pretty cool. Words coming from his mouth are full of sarcasm, somehow those words are comfortable at the same time. They both have lighten up pretty much each nights since the day i enter this school of.... judgement? Haha whatever.

They make me laugh and smile every time i read their chats. We do conference chat everyday. It's fun! Haha i can always talk about anything, they will not judge, they'll make fun of me instead and it's nice in some ways haha, i do the same to them too. When one of us starts to speak nonsense, we'll just ignore it. But the chat continues anyway! I don't know if its too early to call them my best buddies, but they're the best so far.. They stay true to themselves and that's comforting!

Even when talking about our crushes, we're not being serious, we just have fun with it. And sometimes, i need those fun stuffs. Most of my girlfriends say these things about the chance of my crush likes me too, when they don't even know them. They just do this to comfort me and give me hope, well what they do is kinda nice, but i sometimes am tired of hoping to high, and these talks make me you knowwwww sick. Haha but when i tell the two guys, they just tell me not to dream too high and have fun with life. Haha that's not exactly what they told me, they speak sarcasm in a funny way, but that pretty much is the point haha

I haven't thanked them in my previous post, cos honestly, i forgot. Hahahahahahahaha

Sooooo, sorry for the late post even when you two dont read or even know my blog ahaha

Dear triadi&brandon,

Happy new year sobats!! Semoga kita menjadi yang terbaik di smak1! Banggain pgs eaaa, haha semoga makin rajin + makin deket sama Tuhan!
Dan skrg tgl 6, kebetulan sekali.
Happy birthday brandon freak. Tambah yang baik2, jgn ngefreak lg, salam super \m/ haha